Alexa's Confessions

My MindTube of a Maze of Thoughts and Rants

Don’t limit yourself to one type of beautiful; beauty has infinite possibilities.

—Alexa Holcombe

Can’t I Just Be Me?

I don’t want highlighted or bleach blonde hair,

I like my dirty blonde locks.

I don’t want a small nose that looks like everyone else,

I like my nose, I’ve had it since birth,

I don’t want larger breast that cost 10 grand,

I like my B cup, they suit me well and I’d rather buy vacations and memories instead.  

I don’t want perfectly shaped fake teeth that cover my own,

I like my smile, it hasn’t changed since I was 7.

I don’t know if I want children or to be a wife just yet, or ever, 

I’m 26 and right now, I like my life being a spontaneous adventure.

I don’t know if I want to settle in one place.

The world is a playground and I want to explore it.

I don’t want to be everyone’s friend, I don’t care if everyone likes me,

I don’t like everyone.

I don’t know if I’ll “figure” it out,

But I’m not going to stop learning.

I just want to be happy being me.  

-A.Holcombe

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LIFE.  LOVE.  HAPPINESS.

Most of us have become quite familiar with this trio of words.  Whether it be on a greeting card, a poster, a mug, a bracelet, a shirt, or in a frame in your bathroom over the toilet- it’s everywhere….you can’t escape them!

We read these letters, and in our heads we decipher the meaning of each.  What is life, love and happiness.  Why are they typically and almost always associated with one another?  Do you need love to be happy?  Is a fulfilled life defined by whether or not we have “found” love?  And what type of love?  What type of happiness?  Who’s life?

Or maybe you haven’t really ever done so, never thought much of it.  I myself, have seen this trio probably over a million times, and I never really read them and thought to myself what each means to me.  So here is the first thoughts that comes to mind when I read these words:

Life…

The gift of consciousness. 

Love…

The freedom of your soul and the demise of your ego.

Happiness…

To live each day with gratitude and optimism. 

  -A. Holcombe

It’s easy to love and be loved.  
You can fall in love with someones smile, laugh, touch, energy.

But how deep do you know their core?

Can you trigger sensations they never felt?

 Can you look beyond their identity?

Can you understand their core?

 Can you unlock their soul? 

It’s easy to love and be loved.  

You can fall in love with someones smile, laugh, touch, energy.

But how deep do you know their core?

Can you trigger sensations they never felt?

 Can you look beyond their identity?

Can you understand their core?

 Can you unlock their soul

Sometimes I just wish I could be left completely alone for days, or weeks, or until I’m at complete peace with myself. 
The soul needs time to connect with your spirit and your mind.  
I want to wonder through majestic forests and fields of flowers.
Smoke a joint and get lost in my own mind.
Talk with my thoughts.
Sing my own lyrics.
I just want to have the freedom to get lost.
-A. Holcombe

Sometimes I just wish I could be left completely alone for days, or weeks, or until I’m at complete peace with myself. 

The soul needs time to connect with your spirit and your mind.  

I want to wonder through majestic forests and fields of flowers.

Smoke a joint and get lost in my own mind.

Talk with my thoughts.

Sing my own lyrics.

I just want to have the freedom to get lost.

-A. Holcombe

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I will always love you.

A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.